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I DIDNT THINK I COULD WRITE ABOUT THIS BECAUSE IT WAS WAY TOO BIG.
BUT IM SUFFERING AND I ONLY HAVE A PEN.
I'M GOING BACK TO CHICAGO IN A FEW WEEKS.
AND THE CLOSER I GET, THE MORE I FORGET, HOW BAD IT WAS, HOW BAD I WANT YOU BACK.
AND MY WAVES OF EMOTION, AS BIG AS THE OCEAN, SWALLOW ME WHOLE, IM PARALYZED BY THE COLD.
MY OLD FRIEND IN THE HOLE, WATCHES ME AS I CHOKE.
AND IM THRASHING IN THE WAVES THAT ARE SMASHING MY HOPE.
I AM AT THE MERCY OF YOUR CHOKE HOLD. BUT EVEN YOUR HANDS I LOVE AROUND MY THROAT.
I CANNOT DESCRIBE THE DANGER I'M IN. THE DESIRE TO DROWN MYSELF IS JUST AROUND THE BEND.
YOU STOPPED HEARING ME, OR CARING, SOMETHING HAPPENED.
YOU CHANGED AND IT CHANGED ME,AND NOW IM SICK.
DEATH BECOMES ME LIKE A DRESS OR YOUR NYLON FIX.
I FEEL LIKE IM GONE FROM YOUR ARMS AND YOUR KISS.
IM NOT STRONG ENOUGH TO FIGHT THIS ANYMORE.
TO FIGHT YOU IS A LOST CAUSE.
YOU'RE MY HEART ATTACKED WITH YOUR SWORD, YOUR GUN AND YOU WICKED TOUNGE.
YOU'D BE MY CONFIDENCE. THAT'S WHAT YOU SAID.
I LACK COMMON SENSE.AND I SELF DESTRUCTED.
WHY DID YOU PUSH ME TO LENGTHS I COULD NOT COPE WITH?
YOU KILL ME AND YOU LOVE ME ALL AT ONCE.
I BELIEVE IN YOUR ABILITY TO GET WHAT YOU SO BADLY WANT.
BUT AT MY EXPENSE.
IT IS NOT IN THE STARS. SEEMS LIKE I AM NOT IN YOUR CARDS.
BUT IT WASNT LIKE THIS BEFORE. ONE HOTEL MADE YOU A DOOR.
AND AT FIRST YOU THROUGH WITH SUCH FINESS.
BUT YOU ABANDONED ME, AND YOURSELF.
NO, I DIDNT WANT YOU TO STAY ON A COUCH.
BUT YOU WERE FUNNY, YOU LAUGHED
YOU NEVER SCREAMED OR SHOUT.
WHAT ARE THE DRUGS OR THE PATH YOU ARE ON?
WHEN I ASK, YOU JUST BLOW UP.
IN REGARD TO ME, YOU LIE TO YOURSELF.
YOU'RE CHASING A DRAGON AND ITS FIRE WILL NEVER BURN OUT.
IM OUT OF YOUR WAY, YOU HAVE TO BE SOMEWHAT RELIEVED.
RELEASED IN YOUR CARE, YOU SIGNED SO OPENLY.
MAYBE YOU TRY THE BEST YOU CAN AND I AM THE VICE YOU HAD TO END.
I WAS THE INSPIRATION ,
I MADE YOU STRONG ENOUGH,
TO PUT US TO DEATH.